Selection in Election

Hey folks, I was desperately waiting for my voter ID card some days back and was anticipating the day when I get a chance to vote for the first time ( Yes!!! I got my voter ID card very late, thanks to the Tv advertisement "JAAGORE" with the tagline Agar Aap Vote Nahi De Rahe Ho to Aap So Rahe ho, so according to advertisement I WOKE UP that day, once I received my voter registration number and card and waited for the day when I would get a chance to press the button on the electronic ( I luvvvvv gadgets) voting machine, I followed the talk of election ministers on TV, the way rallies, speeches, advertisements happened in every galli and mahulla and felt my vote too will make a difference and won't go unnoticed like a drop in the ocean. I decided on the symbol that I had to press the button on and thought of the positive outcomes that may take place once the lighted buttoned party came in to existence in that tenure, I hurried towards the poll location, found my name in the list, darted to the room where I had my number and was at last waiting desperately to ink my finger ( for the first time) . I was called and the vertical ink line coloured my nail and the skin below and after that I went to this small partly concealed poll station where I had to press the buzzer, and I saw this huge list of parties with my selected party on it too... and suddenly something made me stop.... think..... think..... think, was it right to vote for this particular party??? will they be catalysts to change the country in a better way?, will my selection make any difference?, will I see less bloodshed of innocent victims? I paused, all symbols attracting me towards them and leaving me equally disturbed, I didn't know what to do.. for once I desperately wanted to see the "NO VOTE" BUTTON option as per section 49 (o) and press it hard, coz no politicians seemed trustworthy, but the button was nowhere to be found, the poll heads shouted to cast my vote and move out as the serpentine queue waiting to vote was increasing and here I was figuring out a way to skip this, in the end I pressed the key to the symbol I had earlier selected and the button made a teeeeeeeeeeiiiinnnnnn sound and my vote was casted, I came out confused, my first experience was not exciting but scary sometimes I felt that my vote wasn't needed but I also felt the next minute that every vote was valuable and every person who voted wanted the best for them and the country, but do we have the political parties and politicians really concerned about this?? The question bothers me big time. The decision has become so difficult that it is like choosing from the worsts and making them decide the course of our country, are the politicians believable? to be relied on?.. I recollect my final answer in the Mr Mumbai Contest 2000 when we finalists were asked a common question " Define- Indian Politician", to which I answered " Politician that we have in contemporary India are people of white lies in white clothes, they are the ones whose promises are broken with time,No wonder they are the very same people who shake the hands of people before election and their confidence after that" , luckily I won the competition but little did I realize that almost many years from that day my opinion still remains the same.